Haunted

This blog has been haunted for centuries.Okay that is just exaggerating much! Well it's been almost half a year I didn't update my blog.I miss writing! It's my passion to write. I'm not good at expressing feeling.But I prefer expressing it in my blog. No one would judge. Just let this fingers tap on this keyboard and I'll feel so much better already. 

Year 2012 didn't go well but Alhamdulillah, I'm still breathing. Alhamdulillah, I'm still able to see & hear. What if death is actually getting closer to us without realizing it? Are we ready to face sakratul maut? Inshaallah, I'm scared :( What if I'm not ready? O Allah please give me the strength :')

I was in a relationship in mid 2010 but it ended early 2012. I decided to give up love for Allah. I didn't want to be in a relationship unless I'm married. I'm sorry. As much as I love you, I had to let you go. I'm sorry for being the bad one. But I had to. I choose this path because I do not want the both of us to forget our mighty creator. 

We might not be like other couples, go on a date or touch hand or hug each other. But what I'm afraid of is zina hati . I don't want to even get close to zina. I regret what I did. The both of us always text each other. Of course we pray 5 times a day, read al- quran but deep in my heart i felt guilty. I'm truly sorry. 

Iloveyou but as much as I love you. I realized that I love Allah even more. I just don't want to be because of a lover Allah is forgetted. No, I've never forget Allah in every breath of mine but it seems that in every breathe of mine I am just getting further & further away from Allah. I just want that back where I always tell every story to Allah instead of sharing it to you. I guess I am just not ready yet.It hurts to be like this but I know Allah will show us the way Inshaallah :) I'm sorry I had to be cruel to end all of this. 

I'm sorry.

 To him,

        Please be strong :) have faith in Allah. Everything happens for a reason. I know that you are strong so please, move on my hero :) the world is so much more than this. Forget & Forgive, I beg you please :)

Yours sincerely,

:)

my oh my XD

guess what? I just finished my report! But that's just chapter 1 & 2.HAHA which is like 10% of the whole report. Yet I sounded as if I've finished diploma HAHA =.= ya baruk tuija! HAHA

Work.work. I guess in reality working at construction site can be really harsh.Like seriously. People are always aiming for when they need to get their projects done and thus, the people who are working under them is being under pressured like seriously. I'm just a trainee but they expect us to be like a working engineers. They think we're engineers. I was like.I'm a builder, GET THE FACTS RIGHT.

At that instant moment they ask us to read drawings. To make sure where the piping goes as the plumber needs to install soil,vent and waste water pipe. Loads of expectations. I met a lot of people too, like 1malaysia HAHA. They all play hard and WORK hard TRUST ME. Everytime I reach home I just feel tired. I lost few kilos too HAHA perhaps it's due to non-stop walking and standing for the whole day.. HAHA

I like being at home still. There's Mi Ho.She's just ACTIVE. Hyper I mean.
Alhamdulillah upon everything that has happened.The ups & downs I'll try to make it through.Sorry If I haven't beign able to update at a constant speed as my body needs rest. Busy too.I dislike the fact that my Saturday is being snatched away for work boohoo :(

darker

concreting ot till night like 8pm.

restless

love

naughty fox

I miss luak

empty

McD breakfast ;)

I'm tired

What I'm going to post about is related to my work.So, if you feel it's annoying BACK OFF. I wrote this just to let go of it.
I'M SO FREAKING PFFFT.Whatever.I'm tired.My legs are about to fall off.Seriously. I'm sleepy.Tired.I'm tanned.
17 stumps which has problemS. Super great! The consultant decided that we have to RE-DO the Link!
 OH YEAH. DOUBLE THE JOB! The cost too :) You know the consultant was a friend of Harun, Our senior! We met him just now.Unbelievable. It's amazing how he still remembered us.HAHA
The footings are 2meters below the ground level.For two days all we did was dig the soil.
I feel like fainting today since it was so hot & loads of work to be done.
Because of the stagnant of water in the stump.For 2 weeks it's all about the 17 STUMPS.Bebual nyawa gitok eh!TENSION2.
I have yet to study the drawings.I'm tired.I miss studying so much :(
I'm sleepy.Night

this is miho :)

it's here!

Alhamdulillah,
The internet line has finally come to it's senses! ahaaaa :D Got a new laptop for the house too. Would want a desktop but nowhere to be put :( SAD. Skip that. I'm adopting a can I mean cat aha.Tengok excited sampai salah spelling sudaa ! In a few more minutes I'll pick it up. Choosing names. I want Messi for a HE & Kate for a SHE but Liyana is Kate so skip that. Hermoine? Or Ji Eun haahaa.
I'm excited!
with lotsa never ending love,
ikaika 

written in the stars ;D

check out the lyrics.nice one :D