I told liyana.Ottokajo.What should I do? Well I am addicted to this korean drama lately, You're beautiful. It's super cool dude.Hwang taekyung sang a song with the word 'ottokajo' in it.
Lately these few weeks things just gets weirder and more emos along the way.
I HATE it when tears just have to come out.I tried to cover it.I tried to hold it.
But it just came out.Why can't I just keep it like water tanks and let it out before I sleep.
Why must it be done in front of my friends.It really shows how I can't hold them.
Like clouds pouring the rain.It's seriously embarrasing.Why am Ilike a kid.Why do people treat me like one.
I just feel so hurt. Why don't they tell me the important stuffs.Why do people always have to be busy?
I received a call that tuesday.It was short but I felt hurt.Deeply.It's enough that I feel like doing nothing that monday night and the next day I have to deal with another thing.
Am I being invinsible? Do I have special powers like that? It's hard to deal with emotions.I wish I could be sensitive-free.Then I'd be strong O Allah please give me the strength :)
I went to survey camp last week.I totally forgot about assginments.It was great.The only thing to gago was ukur tanah, sembahyang, makan, lepak waktu malam dengan kawan.
If things were to be like that wouldn't that be great? But hit me, it's reality now. The next thing I know after sunday, monday was another day to deal with and so is tuesday, wednesday.Luckily nothing happened on thursday. I wish my heart won't hurt that much.
- If I could talk to my heart, If I could talk to it as if it's an object I would give my heart colourful handy plast. for the scars.I would hug it.
I would tickle it. I would give it a strong foundation with columns and beam and brickwall so that it would never hurt because it's strong now.I would say "I'm sorry heart, biane. Sorry if I'm mean to you.Sorry for the past.Please be stronger.I'll treat you kindly :D
It's all mind setting.But I don't want to terasa ever so easily.Ever since I was small I'm easily touched.Why can't I have a heartless heart at least? So I won't cry or feel hurt.It's so weak.Please heart be strong. I'll take good care of you :B
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